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[YRP Students' Essays] Looking for Myself, Hideki

The essay is written based on the novel, "Looking for Alibrandi" written by an Australian woman Melina Marchetta, about a girl in her last year of high school who is trying to find her identity.
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On reading the book, "Looking for Alibrandi", I realized that there are lots of similarities between the main character Josephine Alibrandi and me. The similarities that I found are not physically related but mentally. I have felt the same emotions as Josephine did.

Looking back at my life so far, I see there were a lot of things that I had to do which were forced on me by my parents. For example, I had to go to piano lessons every week. This started when I was only five years old and continued until I turned fifteen. I also had to write essays about the incidents that were happening all around the world every day. To be honest, I really hated these lessons and studies that my parents made me do. They wanted so many things from me. I didn't want to upset my parents so I did all I could for them at that time. However one day I asked myself, "What is the need of doing these things? Why am I studying for my parents? Why am I not thinking for myself?" I can still remember that these questions were going round and round in my head. To solve these questions, I quit doing these things that I hated. The age that I actually did this was when I was fifteen years old. Finally this act helped to achieve my aim - to be free.

However, I discovered that to be free from these pressures and people is enjoyable, but stressful at the same time. It might sound strange and incoherent but this was what I honestly thought. From this experience, I thought that the aim that we are trying to achieve may not be always right. However it is very necessary to have time to go back and think about the life you have gone through. It also gave me a chance to think about my life, my future and myself. I am continuing the decision that I made when I was fifteen and now I have a plan for my future.

Child Research Net would like to thank the Doshisha International Junior/Senior High School and Hideki Kawata, student and author, for permitting reproduction of this article on the CRN web site.
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